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It’s ok to fail, right?

It’s amazing that when you put a goal out into the web-is-sphere – that it becomes extremely hard to actually abide by it. I tried to think that it would be possible to write something down everyday and post it onto the internet. I mean, come on! Really? What was I actually thinking? I am NOT that organized and disciplined. I like to “think” I am, but let’s be real – I’m not. Continue reading “It’s ok to fail, right?”

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Posted in Being the wife, Shaveh, Timothy

Growing up – Husband, Wife, Us…… Me?

I looked over my blog calendar the other day, and I was gob smacked at how little I have actually been writing. It’s nuts how this kind of thing actually needs to be planned for and allocated time to.

There are so many spheres of my life that I really need to get back into sharing with you guys. I know that I have been talking a lot about the kids and how we go about our everyday lives. But I think that I need to start sharing a little more about Tim and I and what we are going through. Continue reading “Growing up – Husband, Wife, Us…… Me?”

Posted in Our Hair, Shaveh

My Afro Hair update….

In our little banner up there – our disclaimer has the “fro’s” part in it. It has been a looooooong time since I mentioned anything about our hair. Guys, this hair thing is hard work and it’s not a joke.I’m trying to understand 4 heads of hair here – while trying to make sure that we don’t break the tiny little bank we have. So with that said – I decided that I would focus in on my hair first before I move back to the kids hair. I did a little blurb on finding liquid gold for my girls hair – but that was ages ago and to be honest – because of Aislyn’s swimming, we haven’t been using it that much. I should actually go back there – because it is so cheap to make. Continue reading “My Afro Hair update….”

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Today, I’m just Sad….

I don’t know why but today I just woke up feeling sad. Nothing traumatic has happened to me exactly but it’s been a day of trying to process through why I’m feeling this way. I don’t like to feel sad, because it’s a hard emotion to wade through. Continue reading “Today, I’m just Sad….”

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Why am I blogging? What do I have to offer?

I’ve spent the last few weeks, constantly staring at my computer and wondering what thoughts I want to put down on my little blog. A blank screen can become quite intimidating and switching over to Netflix, is just so much easier – right? I’m not doing this for any monetary gain and it isn’t my work – so why should I bother – right? Continue reading “Why am I blogging? What do I have to offer?”

Posted in A moms opinion, Shaveh

7 Things I need to cope as a Homeschooling Mom

Ok, so this “groove back” thing isn’t quite working as well as I thought it would. Ever since Jude was in hospital and we’ve had to readjust our schedule for his sake – I have come to realize that I really treasured certain parts of my day and now they’re all over the place because we’ve had to reshuffle. Continue reading “7 Things I need to cope as a Homeschooling Mom”

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I hate crying when there’s nothing to cry about

Have you ever had a day, a week or a month where you feel like you’re carrying lead around with you and it’s just yucky? I’m not talking about physically (even though this does influence the physical) I’m talking more like in your soul and heart?

I’ve had a few weeks like that lately. It’s so easy to mask it up – let me tell you – SO EASY. Especially in the generation we’re living in. Smiles, hugs and waves are so superficial and can so easily hide what’s really going on.

The worst is when you don’t even know why you’re feeling like that, right? I don’t think it’s full on depression but I bet it’s a drop of what depression feels like.

I have been unmotivated, empty and unwilling (wait, I don’t think that’s the right word – more like unable) to give to others what I would normally be able to. Others, I mean like my hubby, children and friends. It’s the weirdest thing, and I’m honestly so tired of feeling like this so I’ve been throwing myself into projects to see if being creative will help lift my spirit up.

I’ve even tried doing the right thing and spending time with God. I just feel that even there – I’m so heavy that it’s like sitting in His lap and just wanting to cry, but I don’t even know why I’m crying? And I hate crying when there’s nothing to cry about – I mean come on? Who wants to ugly cry for nothing, right?

But then again, maybe I’m carrying something and I don’t even know what it is…… like a subconscious something that’s trying it’s darndest to get out.

I don’t know about you, but who wants to go digging around a landmine and expect to not get hit or blown to pieces.

It’s more like, maybe I don’t want to fall apart because I’m pretty much ‘it’ for the kids. I’m their teacher, chauffer, chef and mom. My hubby works solidly and for me to just mope about and cry about something I don’t even know about, doesn’t make sense? Plus, my family’s life would go to the pooper if I did. I know my kids would lose their minds and go at each other like wild animals – and I aint having that. Fo realz!

Wow, this is depressing just reading it back to myself. I apologise for ruining your Monday. I wish I could end this one with something encouraging or something really profound – but alas – I am empty and void of anything positive right now.

I guess let’s call this one a really real low. Here’s hoping something flips somewhere and I can tell you about that……