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Faith vs Fear – how do I even?

Ok, so I’m still slightly freaked out by all of the snatching, kidnapping, school letters and all round bad news about child abductions. Like I wrote about child safety we need to do our best to educate ourselves, and our kids, about being safe. But, can we really live our lives like this? constantly looking over our shoulders, one eye open and feel anxious? To this – I shout out, “NO!! No more!”

I’ve always come to this point in my faith walk. The bible is clear about not being worried about tomorrow and rather dealing with what today has (Philipians 4:6-7) To have our eyes fixed on the one who created us and trust Him (Hebrews 12:2) Dude! there are so many verses that have had to become my focal point as a parent – because honestly, its nuts to try and do this thing and constantly be in fear and anxiety over everything.

Now don’t get me wrong – coming to this place is a constant exercise because being human has its many “wonderful facets” thanks to those first two in Genesis. Being human makes you constantly have to shift your mindset from being one of “I can do this thing and I’m doing well” to “actually, I suck at this and need help – what the ‘bleep’ do I know anyway?” HELP!!!! (imagine me running around like a headless chicken and there’s blood everywhere)

How do you calm that down? how do I pull myself towards myself? the craziness is real! The darkness and evil is real! But, as much as it’s suffocating and all consuming – it’s my choice to shift my focus. It’s my choice to lay that down and pick up what I know to be true. What I know to be lighter and brighter.

Being a Jesus believer, has really helped this tremendously. if you read that part of the bible that I mentioned in the second paragraph, then you’ll read straight after that the very thing that brings me back to the center. “The peace of God, that is above all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus…..” (Philipians 4:6-7) That right there is what it is – when I return my focus to Him – there is no explaining that feeling.

Well,  maybe I can liken it to returning the safest place you know. That massive sigh that your body releases in knowing that this isn’t my problem, I’m going to be ok and He has me and my kids. So as massive as fear can be because fear is rude, unapologetic and invasive, it’s my faith in knowing who is in charge. Yes, bad things are going to happen and will always happen – but there is nothing more calming than knowing He is my end. That pain is always going to be there, darkness is here in our human world – but He is light (in both senses of the word) and He asks me to choose Him every time.

So I choose Him, I choose faith because fear is just too heavy to carry around and a waste of my breath.

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I'm a woman finding my way through life as the wife of Tim, the mom to 3 growing kids and trying to maintain some sort of self through it all. I hope you enjoy reading how I’m trying to find myself through this life.

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